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When Will I Feel Secure?

I finished making my portfolio book for the review event, and now I’m between projects, which makes it hard to stay focused. I feel rushed, which is normal for me. When will I ever feel secure in life? It’s been ages since I last did. I’m not even sure if I ever have.

Now that I’m alone, I feel more insecure than ever. I keep challenging myself—not intentionally, but as a result of searching for a better way to live. In the process, I’ve had many different experiences: living abroad, shifting my work from something common to something more personal—specifically, from graphic design to making photobooks. I’ve run workshops and a club, gone through a divorce, and now live alone. I’m working as a custodian to make a living while continuing to explore book design.